The theory of why I'm still single:

1. I stick to my own friends and never make an effort to know more people.
2. I hate the phase of starting to know people, cause you gotta act as though you love them, if not they think that you are too cool.
3. I am always not myself when I'm not with my friends.

By: Mr. Tan Han Lin.

I'm going crazy with all those "when you are broke, you see nice stuff" phenomena. It has been haunting me ever since I started shopping as a side occupation. This sucks.

Today has all been about gunpowder, revenge and hair. Yeah, I'm a saint sometimes, but never anger the saint. Or the saint can become the satan. Meeting Valerie on the 25th! I'm looking forward to it. Pubbing? Haha. You decide okay! Just tell me.

I'm quite amazed by how fast people fall in love, how fast they get out of it, how long they get stucked in that relationship because they can't let go and how hurt they can be. Yes, call me immature, selfish and not thinking for others. Yes, I have not been in love for like a long time. But have you gone out of mind everytime you fall in love? You do think rational right?

I simply hate "I can't let go"

It's just that you're unwilling to look on the other side. Its all about the point of view. I don't wanna question why you can't view it from my point of view cause most probably people say "You're not me! You don't understand what I am going through" And yes, I might not know, but we've all been through this stage in our lives. How bad could it have been? Abused? Nope.

I just hope that you listen to us. I'm not asking for much, as every single time this happens, I just hope for one thing, your safety. You make us like ants on hot pans, worrying about you, if you're happy, I don't mind. But whats with the cuts and insaneness that you have now? Do you know that you're not what you're like before? If I could stop, I would stop relationships getting into your life and screwing it up. Ever since relationships started for you, your life changed totally. Its like you have to do all these stuff everytime at the end/bad times during the relationship.

What do you exactly want? Quit telling me that you don't need us to be around for you, to care for you and your wounds. Do you know thats a silent call for help? If not why do you inflict such stupid cuts on yourself. Don't laugh it off, cause I am dead serious this time. I'm putting our friendship at stake. But I wonder if you'll ever see this anyway.

Call me harsh bitch or whatever, if life is ever so mundane for you, then end it. If living is such a torment, if he is the only thing you could live for, please die. Because you have not lived your life. You always forget the one that cares about you the most. Your dearest family, have you wondered, whenever you were sad, your parents were at least twice as affected as you are? Stop thinking that you're the saddest, the most pitiful in the whole freaking world, relationships at this point of time is fuck, in your life. You have a long way to go, please tell me you will make full use of it. I don't believe that this Casanova is of any good shit. So just leave him, not for me, but for yourself.

If your memory is that bad, then let me remind you,
"Do you remember what happened during your last relationship?"
"Do you remember that call that you gave me?"
"Do you remember what you said?"

I'm really upset, friend.

MTV's Classic is cool shit! It plays old school Pop English Hits and they are damn nice. Nice slow English songs. Not so much of those R&B and HipHop that we have nowadays. Too jumpy and like easily forgotten.

My brother successfully downloaded the old school Sega games and Nintendo games into his PSP. Yes, I'm being unproductive again.

Something that no one believes in treated as a joke.
To say "I'm hurt" feels terribly dumb.
To say "Hah, It was all a dream" feels unrealistic.
With no one to speak to, because no one understands.
Am I supposed to keep it to myself for the rest of my life?
Quit telling me you understand cause you really don't.
If you do, you won't say " I understand"
No, it is not what I am looking for.
It is more complicated.

As much as I try to forget sometimes, sometimes it still hits me back, quite in the face.

Is it me or is it you?
I kind of not understand you sometimes.
In everybody's mind, I'm supposed to know you at my fingertips.
I think I don't even know you at the back of my hand.
I tried to appreciate, and I really do.
But it didn't seem to you and maybe that's not what you are looking for.

I didn't complicate. It came like this.

Maybe I was thinking too much.
Maybe I should have listened to others.
Maybe I lived in delusion, and didn't care about the real world.
Maybe reality didn't hit me till now.
Maybe we aren't meant to meet.
Maybe I am not meant to be in your life.

I think I am thinking too much
I should have listened
I guessed I lived in delusion and didn't care about the real world.
Yes, Thanks reality.
I guess we were not meant to meet.
And definitely, not a part of your life.

Yes, I should get lost now.

Hello. Free to blog now since I'm early for project meeting. Yay. Only left with TTO. Meeting PJ later, don't know what is he gonna say to our PPT, I hope I don't need to change much, if not it'll be a tedious night. I had "fun" editing those PPT photos in school on Monday. I hope I do not have to do it again!

Celebrated Joanne's birthday at Giraffe on Tuesday. Happy 18th girl! Nice ambience. Like really cool to stay for a drink and all. The drinks aren't too expensive I guess. Val, interested?